03 September 2017

Things to Learn

There is a reason when they say that you only stop learning when you finally die. Perhaps it goes barely noticed, especially as a student that fills his daily life with school’s curriculum, but the truth is, many small things that one gets go unnoticed.

On Saturday, I got to finally meet one of my best friends; one that is ready to listen to my rants, my gossips, and my whines. One can never ignore such friends, right? Yet sadly, we rarely get to meet each other due to each other’s business. On that particular time though, during a rare event of a long weekend, I get to have brunch with this friend of mine. Not for any other reason than to spend some quality time. High five, Garlic!


We got to talk about many things, and being a patisserie major she is, it involved food and cakes. Something that both of us likes, especially with my family’s bakeshop. My table manner also gets corrected, by the time our food arrives. Getting closer to become a gentleman, eh? Well, eventually, things get less superficial as time goes.

As a paradoxical creature that needs social interaction with people yet is also egotistical by nature, we then proceeded to talk about each other’s social life. Interesting how everyone develops, especially seeing how her life is getting busier yet better with all the activities she has in her hands. Whilst I, I’m just getting busier, albeit being more excited. Hah.

One particular thing that made me glad to actually spend some time for that little rendezvous, however, lies at the end of our very talk. Whilst I was talking about my personal point of view towards a problem within an organization I’m in, she made several critics towards myself that I accepted more than gladly. One of them being how attitude matters. A little bit of a no brainer, but, perhaps a backstory is necessary.

I always hold a little bit of pride when it comes to how witty I can be; a trait I consider to be a good thing when it comes to breaking the ice of overly rigid events. So, even when it comes to interacting with my juniors at school, for example, I've always made it in a manner that I would consider as comical. What's the need of unnecessary professionalism, right? Well, one thing that she made me realize is that it does affect one’s image in the long run. Making people take you for granted, so to say. So apparently, one thing that I would try to do is to keep some social structures retained.

The further conversation regarding that, however, must be dropped due to the fact that the cab she booked has come, which eventually marked the end of our talk. At least, one other thing to learn about life, right?

Check out this friend of mine here.
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01 August 2017

Restless

This night provides no solace, making my heart violently growl looking for an escape. I am burned from my soul, and its smoke I can feel coming to bloat my head.

I don't know what's happening to me. I'm resisted from going to my slumber. The reflection that stares at me is agreeing with the thoughts that recklessly crashes each other in my mind.

I am sorry for abandoning you. I should've settled. I will, and I promise you. Right now, I just need some time by myself. I need to think first.

Please, let me sleep.

Monday, July 31, at 3 AM


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14 June 2017

How Are You?

An easy question to ask, that is often posed as a filler to make things less awkward between people in a conversation. Nevertheless, delved in further, perhaps answering it is not as simple as to pose yourself for being fine.

Let's try by answering this in a more honest fashion, which is to avoid the common answer we all have known and shift our point of view to our state of being at the time. The answer is limitless, depending on how one see their own self. Does this guarantee a sincere answer, though? Perhaps, not necessarily.

You see, unlike most of the things that we see around us, emotion is a dark abyss that is not measured in numbers or any specific points; eventually causing conflicting thoughts within our rational mind and the one that goes wild all around. Dissonance, you might say. It is possible to state your well-being simply from the dinner that you've had beforehand, or how you find your lucky penny on your way beforehand.

But, does it translate to how good you are? Indeed, not necessarily. Going in deeper and farther in time, more scars are visible; sometimes even more prominent ones. Those moments from your childhood that you have never dared to speak about, or perhaps, that person you wish you can never talk to anymore. The farther we see, the easier it is to see some things that are too big to see in such a narrow point of view.

Indeed, nobody is comfortable to talk about it; sometimes, a "Fine, thanks." is way easier to be just said in the given moment. We bury those things deep within us for the ease of simply going on. Nobody has to know.

So, how are you?~
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